Big Sister Pains

Evie has been so obsessed with her baby brother. I think that she likes her brother, and I think she will grow to love him. But I think there is also a lot of frustration.

She wants to be next to him all the time. While nursing this results in jiggling so a I tell her not to. She wants to hold him, but on her schedule so there is to much jostling there so I tell her not right now. She wants him to be a sister, but he is a brother.

Then there is her rigidness in the face of change. She had to change quickly for a baby. Then Covid19 hit and everything changed more than it should have. So she cried when we rearranged her room. And she will NOT trade beds to have the bunk bed in her room, which I thought was something she would want. I imagine it's just too much change too quickly.

She is also so loud. Her voice is loud, and everything she does is loud. Banging and clanging. So I tell her not to. But she still makes noise, sometimes it looks like it's compulsive, not even thought out.

And she gets bored. and then she has to turn up his swing, pinch his cheeks, poke his soft spot. It's constant monitoring. He better to learn to run as fast as he can.